Time Wasted

Don't waste your breath
I appreciate what you're saying
life is a game to me
I'm merely playing

I dont take things seriously
I dont see the point
Why bother getting stressed
just smoke a joint

I gave up on a future
quite a long time ago
that one night after-
that you'll never know

So please just ignore me
I can't take the sympathy in your eyes
I deal with it just fine
behind a smiling disguise

you can't help me
so please dont try
I can't open up
I can't even cry

I look for way to express
my feelings without saying
two ways i have
but I always end up paying

I need to be in control
from happiness to pain
must remain in my possesion
I must maintain my reign

So just go away
dont try to figure me out
I'm better struggling
you're better without


<3 Shelby

Just A Joke

Life isn't serious
Life's just a joke
don't go to school
stay home and smoke

No disappointments
if you have no goals
blow off you're plans
c'mon smoke that bowel

Who cares what happens
who cares if i die
I just need a fix
I need to get high

Life's better when you're unconscious
Life's better when it's hazy
you probably think I'm nuts
You're thinking I'm crazy

I dont care
Not about you, not even about me
I couldn't care less
I'm who I want to be

I understand you
I'm not dumb
I just ignore you
I'm way past numb

Don't bother telling me
let it all go downhill
I'll forget in a second
just let me pop this pill...




<3 shelby

Do you ever...

Do you ever
sit in the tub and look around
notice the hair dryers plugged in
and consider dropping it down

Do you ever
get ready to walk across the street
see that a car is coming
almost dont stop your feet

Do you ever
find yourself on that bridge
toes dangling over
and think of moving that extra smidge

Do you ever
see something metal, something small
suspiciously close to an outlet
and almost put it in the wall

Do you ever
look at the toaster see it's on
have a fork in hand
and contemplate sticking it gone

Do you ever
just for a split second
that tiny little moment
think of letting it all end

Maybe I'm crazy
or maybe you think this way too
but we both know life is precious
of course we do

but sometimes,
that second we spend thinking it out
just that moment, just that doubt
could end it all...



<3 shelby

Always

Just hearing your voice
helps calm me down
you can make me smile
when I'm beginning to frown

Just talking to you
let's me know everything's okay
and makes me anxious
to start my day

Just knowing someone cares
is making my life complete
I never want to live without you
every other guy you have beat

Just hearing those words
3 to be exact
makes me feel worth it
and thats a fact

just knowing you're there
When I need you most
makes me feel so special
makes me want to boast

I love you
I've never been more sure
I'm in a daze
I've never felt this way before

You're so important to me
babe you're my life
I want to be with you forever
I hope to someday be your wife

I want you to always be mine
and I'll always be yours too
and I will always be here
because I will always love you

<3 Shelby

dedicated to Patrick <3

Intro to Blog

So. I really fail at poetry. But I write it anyways. I normally burn everything I write. And I still do burn the ones that get too personal. I dont try to hard when I write I just let my brain flow.. which often leads to some rather personal stuff. I don't edit my poetry I write and leave whatever I wrote how it is. Even if I have grammatical errors. So dont critique this too harshly. I already know it sucks. But have fun reading. Might be good for a laugh =]

<3 shelby