Throwing them the bone

Every Month I go
just to let them check in my mind
but I always stay bottled up
cant take the risk to unwind

I wander int he door
up the stairs to the waiting room
I analyze those around me
what brought them to this doom?

Perhaps they're just like me
and nobody really knows
just aware somethings wrong
they too must've let a symptom show

Suddenly my name is called
I break out from my thoughts
I walk out with the nurse
is every person in this building such a bot?

Height and weight first
yawn. can i go?
listings of questions
the answers they already know

WAIT! what was that last one?
Do i ever think about...?
uh... NO. never. absolutely not
I need this question out

I always consider telling the truth
and answering "all the time"
but i know they'd lock me up
those words are a crime

Moving on to the doctor
where mom tells whats wrong
she doesnt even know
but she's been trying to help all along

so i let her tell him
what treatments to try
hey why not go along with it
without even a question why

So i just agree completely
failing all pre-set expectations
I let them prescribe me how they wish
no words from me, no hesitation

Let them decide my issues
even though they're far from close
Whoa. suprise! they dont help?
oh. just up the dose

Gotta keep my secrets
dont let them in my head
just keep showing my fake progress
keep doing what is said

Maybe if they think im fixed...
I'll be left alone!
I mean i'd know im still screwed up
but hey, i'll throw them a bone


<3 shelby